Monday, February 28, 2005

Tengo miedo...

Tengo miedo. La tarde es gris y la tristeza
del cielo se abre como una boca de muerto.
Tiene mi corazón un llanto de princesa
olvidada en el fondo de un palacio desierto.

Tengo miedo -Y me siento tan cansado y pequeño
que reflojo la tarde sin meditar en ella.
(En mi cabeza enferma no ha de caber un sueño
así como en el cielo no ha cabido una estrella.)

Sin embargo en mis ojos una pregunta existe
y hay un grito en mi boca que mi boca no grita.
¡No hay oído en la tierra que oiga mi queja triste
abandonada en medio de la tierra infinita!

Se muere el universo de una calma agonía
sin la fiesta del Sol o el crepúsculo verde.
Agoniza Saturno como una pena mía,
la Tierra es una fruta negra que el cielo muerde.

Y por la vastedad del vacío van ciegas
las nubes de la tarde, como barcas perdidas
que escondieran estrellas rotas en sus bodegas.

Y la muerte del mundo cae sobre mi vida.

Pablo Neruda

Thanks Ivan...

Sunday, February 27, 2005


Posted by Hello

Answer to the "Am I evil?" test


You try to stay away from evil deeds but succumb to
temptation every once in a while. You aren't quite on
your way to hell but you certainly have some explaining to do.


Such conforting words...

So it takes me a little while...

I just had a bittersweet weekend. While I blast away "Show Me How To Live" by Audioslave, I figured I should vent here since all my other flushing devices seem to be out of order.

It's come the time to make decisions and stick to them. I am so bad at sticking to things I said I would do. As Molly and Anne would confirm--for those of you that know us all-- I can never follow through with plans. I'm always changing dinner plans, movie plans, traveling plans....it's a curse. Anyway...

I think this is the time for that once a month crying session. It is so enigmatic how one can be completely control-less when it comes to certain people and things. Today, i am sad. As you can see this Blog isn’t about useful information. It is not about funny things, although you might find one or two around here eventually. It is about me letting the world know how I feel—be it crappy, happy or snappy.

There are some people I would really like to be with right now--bet it together or individually. If you're one of them you probably know that you are. It is so much simpler to be with you guys and forget things. I truly appreciate your friendship because you make my world a better place when your auras are around mine.

Honest, i promise to post at least once a week and keep track of things. i promise.