where do i get the right to be jealous? how does that happen? since when does someone get mad when she sees another person having fun even if it is not with her? i don't get it. don't they say that if you love someone you want what's best for them; for them to be happy? if so, then why am i not happy? why do i feel like i want that person to have fun with me? not with someone else. it is insane. totally insane. it is also selfish and i am not liking myself being selfish. what on earth?